This emotional pain

I am so messed up emotionally right now. I fell into one of my crying fits last night and now I'm just drained and exhausted. I don't know how much longer I can take this. And now it's up in the air whether we're even going to have group this week. We won't if we can't take it to another house, and that depresses me more. This is something I need emotionally. And to think it might be taken from me, even for a week, just hurts.